The measures we go through to conceive.

As I was sitting in the waiting room at the hospital it hit me that I'm borderline insane.  Here I was amongst all of these people getting ready to be cut up with the hopes of one day taking a baby home.  No guarantees just a increase in the success rate.  My DH still felt the surgery was unnecessary he just doest like hospitals, doctors, or blood.  I do enjoy watching him baby me make my love for him even stronger.  My RE assured me again that the fluid from the hydrosalpinx was toxic and not only could cause problems with implantation, but could cause  GYN problems in the future, and since I've been trying to conceive for over 10 years with no luck.  My mind tells me that my poor tube is not beneficial for me. My heart and emotions keep telling me not my freaking last tube.  Oh well...........

Bye bye tube and hydrosalpinx.  Fast forward getting out of surgery my RE meet me in recovery and confirmed there was more scar tissue than he was expecting and we would talk about that on my follow up visit.  Great just what I needed to hear him being apprehensive.  He also felt compelled to do a hysterscope and biopsy of my uterine tissue at the time of the laparscopic salpingectomy.  Once again the measures we go through in the IF world.  I'm praying the changes in my uterine tissue was because of the fluid from this hydrosalpinx that has been there for over 7 years draining in my womb.  I know all will be okay, and we will be starting IVF soon, and I will be a mommy before 33. 

Well the pain is hitting me now time to take some pain killers and lay down.