What would I be without my testimony!!

I was laying in bed, and I realize I have less than 60 days before I start stimming, and less than a month before I start to take birth control pills. (Now that is really funny). Birth control pills to a infertile lady got to love the irony.  As much as I am excited about the experience I will soon start.  I'm terrified about the outcome, the stress, the wait, the hormones, the shots, the hoping, wishing, doubting, and fear of failing at something I feel I deserve.  I know this is crazy because so many women only wish to be at this point to have the money for IVF, or to still have a chance for their own biological child so I'm not ungrateful just a little scared.  I wonder if my hormones will swing out of control and cause arguments with the DH?  Will I be so up and down I just go into my business and start firing people? I pray GOD keeps me calm.  I think I've watched to many videos, and heard to many others opinion's and now I fear this will become me.  But the beauty of it all is I get this awesome opportunity to join women on the 2nd part of my journey in life which is being a mom.  I know my Father in heaven has this all under control, but I still get a little OCD sometimes.  I was asked if I had one wish would I change my luck with infertility.  The answer is no, because infertility has made me into the person I am today.  And I know that is awesome!!!!  Thank you Jesus for giving me life lessons as much as they hurt I would not trade them in to have an easy life. Then who would I be without my testimony?